I havenâ€™t written here much for quite some time, and feel nauseous guilt about it. Iâ€™ve failed in my commitment to my fellow Brainiacs. (Not that theyâ€™ve done much better lately. Hah! â€¦.Waitâ€¦.That wasnâ€™t niceâ€¦Or friendlyâ€¦.)
Not Actually Doing It behavior is a constant theme in my life. I often ponder and perfectionize, rather than acting. I go through periods where I just soak up info and rest and am practically inert socially. Iâ€™m frequently abstracted and divorced from daily reality. I donâ€™t answer e-mail or return phone calls or seek out companionship. This can go on for months. I call this my Hermit Phase. Until a few weeks ago, I was convinced that this was a serious personality flaw on my part.
But now I know better. Iâ€™m not bad, Iâ€™m just INFJ. We do those things.
A significant part of the work I did with clients when I was a counselor involved normalizing their behavior. Theyâ€™d come in feeling damaged and inadequate, blaming themselves and thinking that no one else was like them or had reacted like them to the trials and opportunities that life commonly hands out to us all.
So, you have trouble sustaining long-term intimate relationships? Other people do, too! You hate your job? Everybody hates their job! Methamphetamines? Itâ€™s a goddam epidemic!
Once you get past those feelings of having unique and insoluble problems or defects that no one else has experienced, you can start looking at ways other people like you have found to cope, overcome, change, mitigate, or even accept them.
But itâ€™s really, really, really difficult to accept your quirks and perceived failings, after a lifetime of internalizing that thereâ€™s something inexplicably wrong with you.
The Myers-Briggs Type Indicator is based on Jungian theory, and is extremely popular these days in corporate settings. The idea is to fit people and teams together to match their inner needs and compatibilities. Which, uh, is a bunch of bullshit, as far as Iâ€™m concerned.
People love the test and feel that it describes them well. Itâ€™s enticing that itâ€™s a no-shame no-blame test. It just tells you in what ways you’re wonderful and that youâ€™re okay. Itâ€™s great at helping you to accept yourself and not feel weird.
There are areas that you might want to examine, of courseâ€¦.
The MBTI is a for-cost test, but there are a lot of copycat versions floating around out there on the InterWebs for free. A popular one is at HumanMetrics and another is at Similar Minds.
I get almost identical results from both, and a few others out there. Sometimes I show as having a razor-thin INTJ classification, by about 1%, rather than INFJ. Iâ€™m sorta okay about that. INTJs are pretty cool, too, though not as cool as INFJs.
The MBTI correlates, some, with the Big Five test, which supposedly accurately addresses the best, most current psychological theories. But I donâ€™t like the Big Five so much, because it says Iâ€™m neurotic. And that the MBTI is flawed. To Hell with them evil Big Five people.